My husband and I moved to the US 4 years ago and in February this year I had the opportunity to travel back home to Kenya for the first time since our move.
I expected to dive back to life as I knew it, completely at ease with everything. I had not anticipated the difference 4 years can make.
I began to notice I had changed when one afternoon, as we watched gospel music on TV, I started to critique music, thinking of ways the musician could tweak and “improve” her music – to suit an international audience.
Someone interrupted my mental foray when they relayed how the artist’s ministry – the very ministry I was mentally critiquing – was loved in the rural areas. How that ministry was making great strides for God in the rural regions.
Later in the day, the Holy Spirit began to talk to me about about the critiquing I was doing in my own life. How I was trying to tweak things and expand things because my path felt too narrow and too small.
I see all the green grass on the other side and I want my own acre of green now! But after hitting a big life re-set 4 years ago, on some days I feel like all I am doing is playing catchup-up.
God has been clear that what I do now – working from home writing books, mentoring wives, serving my husband, standing with children’s homes – is it. It’s His plan for me right now.
Maybe like me, you delight in the Lord on most days. But then there are days, many days, you long for the next.
Those days when the sacrifice feels so much, the waiting too long, the service unrewarded, the prayer lies unanswered, the faithfulness unnoticed. Days you long to see God expand your territory and move in your life.
I have been learning that God is still faithful even in those days.
He’s been showing me the root of my discontentment and frustration. I’ve sat too long listening to the voice of the enemy, who ever so softly and rationally, wants to show me all the other ways I could be changing and “improving”.
Nothing wrong with growth, but God tells it must be borne of Him, not through fleshly means.
The Lord has reminded me of these three things and I pray they encourage you too as you delight in God’s “Now” even as you trust Him for the “Next” .
Focus on serving
“Not so with you. Instead, whoever wants to become great among you must be your servant, and whoever wants to be first must be your slave just as the Son of Man did not come to be served, but to serve, and to give his life as a ransom for many.”
God calls us to specific places and assignments. And the road to increase in those places is service. Service is where Jesus is at.
It’s not always what our natural flesh delights in, it’s not what the enemy of our soul wants.
Yet God is most delighted by our service because that’s the way to effectiveness and impact. That’s what He did, served us all the way to Calvary and an empty tomb.
Remember: God will give you the grace to do what He called you to do.
Focus on gratitude
It’s easy to see the things that are not working. But if God called you to it, surely, something somewhere is working. So thank God for what’s working now. See the areas He’s moving. Stay grateful.
Focus on God
If you need to clarification, start with God.
God gave you the vision, He hardwired His purpose in you. If you need fresh insights, go to Him.
Not your man. Or friends. Don’t ask them to do only what God can do – fill your voids and direct your path.
Run to Christ first. Lean deeper, linger long, talk to Him in your fear and weakness. Ask Him what He wants you to see. God gave you the vision and dream, allow Him to work it. Talk to God first before you talk to others.
I pray you are encouraged as you trust Him for your next.
Want to be encouraged and equipped in your role as a wife? Join us for the Wisdom for Wives On-line Conference! For more information and to sign up, click here.